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Lilac
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Member Joined Mar 7 2010
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I talk too much. I laugh too loud. I care too often. I love too many. And yet... I'm never enough. Post a CommentOops!The words you entered did not match the given text. Please try again. 79 Comments
Hey. Sorry it's been so long. Haven't been on the computer much since summer. But whats new?
this is going to sound really odd but i literally just found this site, saw you on the PrettyAlone & Me bit and was like o: I follow her blog!
and I have no idea why I posted this  but hi 
hey i'm sorry i didnt get back to you sooner. eh. i'm not doing so well. a lot of shit has happened these past few months. how are you?
How am I? For a start, not gorgeous... Ya turkey.
Uh, everything sucks... Trying to stop smoking weed. Been drinking a lot instead, which isn't even fun. And I can't sleep without a bedtime cone so I'm pretty fucking tired right now. It is pretty hard to stay positive, but I'll try if you try. Who's trying to drag you down? I get that feeling a lot...
Hey I'm sorry! I've been at camp
 so how are you?? And idk what I really want to know about it.. I just have really bad mood swings. Like, really bad. But that could be something different. I cut too, and alot of the symoptoms are like me
So idk I just kinda wanted to talk to someone with it :))
. do you have a facebook? or a ym?. i would like to add u up. at least we can chat with each other.
.hi.i can be ur friend. maybe we can relate at each other .
Ah, doctors appointments... I've been skipping a lot of them actually. It's simply not what I'd like to do with my time!
What's been going on lately? I'm not a fan of the hectic times... I'd rather just chill the fuck out. Emotional eating REALLY sucks. I'm the heaviest I've been in months, I look terrible, feel absolutely hideous, and can't seem to do a damn thing about it!!! I've developed a full blown addiction to chocolate. I never believed it was possible until now. I just NEED it, those happy little endorphins. And I can't stop drinking either... Just, any drug within reach, I quickly consume, then regret and hate myself for a while until I crave something else. My sister? She's a crazy bitch. Always sparks a binge. In fact, I feel a craving for chocolate just thinking about her. It's fucked! Overall, I'm just sick of being fat. AND sick of obsessing over it. How are you? 17 now, how's that going?
Aww that sucks... Did you two ever talk again?
I know what you mean. In like, february? Lol, i noticed my size 9 pants were getting kinda tight and i swore to myself I'd never wear something bigger, and I was like 160. So i tried to start losing weight. And at first I was trying to lose the "right" way, but it quickly spiraled into anorexia. Or thats the best I could describe it. Of course, there was other reasons behind it, theres always other reasons I think.
I'm trying to forgive him, I still want to be with him.. I love him. I'm trying to keep talking with him, to try and fix things...
Yeah, I've done better today. No matter what I'm always somewhat happy with my weight. I haven't been in the 130's since seventh grade. I'm headed into tenth, so yeah. And thanks, you can come to me any time you need to vent or have someone elses opinion on anyting too.
Heey well my life's pretty suckish you? I actually added you cuz I saw that you had bpd on the note you commented on. I wanted to know more about it if that's okay
I think I've got it, but I also know that alot of ppl misdiagnose themselves. And I know what a horrible disorder it is. I'd just like to talk to someone who actually has it
I'm very sorry you do have it though, by the way. It must be really tough.. Stay strong(: xxx  It makes me smile to know you feel pretty sometimes. Honestly! That's awesome.
I still feel shit. I SHOULD be asleep, resting up for my exciting week of doctors appointments. Strangely enough it doesn't seem worth it. Also, I've left a lot of broken glass in my room for a few days... Smashed my mirror before I left home and just got back. For some reason I just can't face cleaning it up. And it's all over my bed... I wish I could restrict my eating. It's SO out of control lately. Eugh. I'm a highly emotional eater, and been getting far too involved with my sister. Never ends well. What else is new lately?
im doing okay. i know those feelings of never making it to that level that everyone else is at. but never believe it. i have and keep believeing it and thats what puts so many girls where we are at. and i think that if we work together we can make each others day a bit better. you know? idk. so if you ever want to talk (other then on here =D) my msn is towriteloveoha@hotmail.com
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